June 21, 2017

When you are free from friends and foes, everything is Love.

Being is something you do not learn; you wake up to This! Staying alone is fundamental! Being alone is not to stay isolated, but it is not to get lost in the experience, in the contact with the outside world. This contact is inevitable, but getting lost in it is preventable. Why am I, in this meeting, inviting you to be alone, what can it seem extreme? Do not talk, do not think... In fact, when I say "do not talk" and "do not think", I am saying, "Do not express your contact - that personal, individual contact of the ‘person’ that you believe to be - with the other, with the world outside”. Do not express words or express thoughts. If you do this, your attention is turned inward. You have no way to lose yourself when you look at the whole internal movement (what happens inside there), without identifying with it. There is no way for you to get lost.

You only lose yourself when you jump out to the outer world, going back, once again, to the same scheme, model, pattern, of that separate identity. When you do this, you begin to make the considerations of "one person" to "people." This is like a tree that has not yet grown. We put a railing around a tree that we want to protect from little animals that want to eat it, or in a place where there is a lot of wind, to protect it from a very strong wind, that could pull it out by the root. You give all the protection for that little plant to grow, protecting it from the wind, from too much cold, from the other animals... You give this little plant, this tree, the condition for it to grow.

When you observe the inner movement, what goes on inside; when you observe the thoughts, the inner responses to something; when you observe your inner reactions, this desire to talk to the other, to exchange ideas, to exchange experiences, to demand or to charge; when you just observe, the attention in this observation begins to reveal all this pattern and all this begins to come out, it begins to appear! You do not analyze it, just observe! You do not compare it; you do not say it is right or wrong, that it should not be like this, that it should be otherwise... You do not do it! You just observe that energy that was once in the expression and that is now in the observation. It was in the feeling before, now it is in the observation.

Thought comes and it is observed; the feeling comes and it is observed (bad mood, good humor, malaise, well-being, a little sadness, melancholy, resistance, a kind of revolt...). There is anger because "the cup is out of place"; "He did not wash his plate"; "She left that pile of dishes on the sink"; "She is 'my wife' ('my' - some right that 'I' have)”... So, this resistance is observed. You see all this inner movement arising, all this revolt, this contrariness, and look at it. This wants to get your body, your nervous system and you just observe. When you observe, this cannot express itself, it does not have the energy to express itself, because your energy of attention is all turned to that movement, which is the movement of "me", with "its" rights, "its" reasons, "its" feelings, "its" sensations and conclusions; with "its" story!

Do you follow this?

This is what we are going to do these days here: do not express! You go there and do it, if you can. If you cannot do it, there is only the desire that cannot be fulfilled, and you let go. For example, they left the light on. You get up, go there and turn it off; you do not remain internally in this story of charging. You do not identify yourself with the story of someone to blame. Do you understand what I mean? Can you follow that? "Who was that wretch who let the light on?"; "What a boring girl! She likes to leave the light on." Then, you stay in these stories: "I do not like her"; "She will see!" "What am I going to do tomorrow?"; "I am going to take revenge, I will find my way"... It is just the way it happens: story! This is a huge waste of energy, of this energy of Consciousness, of Presence, of attention!

I do not known this for a long time, because I do not take nonsense from anyone. I do not keep stories. You keep stories: "You will pay me"; "you will pay for it."... So, you live full of enemies and also full of friends, because you owe favors to those who do something good for you. I do not. You do me some good and, for me, you "die" the moment you just did it. I owe you nothing! There is no need to carry friends or enemies there inside. Is not it beautiful? Do you understand what I mean?

When you are free from friends and enemies, all is Love. Your eyes scintillate that brightness, because there is no future and you did not promise revenge for yourself - the revenge of "someone." There is no past too, because no one has done anything to you, so that, now you do not owe anything to anyone. I am saying that you do not learn how To Be! You do not learn the art of Being! You work That, now, at this moment. You work this "thing" of living without image - the image of the other as a good person or a bad person.

Do you understand? I am alone, always alone. No one can frustrate me, abandon me, become my enemy because it used to be my friend. Why? Because I am alone. I am not talking about myself. I am talking about you! Work this now, here; let everything in the place, do not mess with "people"! Do not mess with this "being a person", because doing so you mess with "people", and then you are in the illusion, in the prison of time.

This little tree cannot grow, if protection and care have not been given to it. This Presence, which You Are, has to be welcomed in this Consciousness and in this Freedom of not identifying yourself, of not getting lost and of not being confused with things, places and people. So, You remain in your uniqueness, in your Freedom, in your Beauty. You do not learn how To Be! It is an acknowledgment that there is only You in the whole universe, in the middle of all shapes, of all names, of all things, people, places, objects... There is Only You!

Everything appears as in the dream. When you stop identifying yourself here in your waking state, at night, when you have dreams, you notice that you are also disidentified. It is directly proportional: the more identified in the waking state, the more identified in the dream. You already know what identification is - to be lost in the experience of the moment, as the experimenter, as the doer.

The other day, I have read something that I found simple, about Muruganar, who was a direct disciple of Ramana. He wrote, talking about Ramana: "Our beloved, our Lord, our Master, our Bhagavan, has freed us from the illusion that we are the authors of things, that we are the doers." This is extremely beautiful! The Guru, the Master, in his Grace, frees you from this illusion - the illusion of being "someone" in the world. You do it now! It is not an impossible thing! You do not learn how To Be; you assume To Be. It is not an impossible thing, but you have to unlearn how to be a "person". Did you hear that? You do not learn how To Be, but you unlearn to be a "person", and you do it now!

How do you unlearn to react (to have reactivity, being reactive), to live in friendship with unconsciousness, acting within a conditioning, an unconscious mechanical response, being inattentive? Start by observation. Notice how you look at people and what you feel when you look at them. Do you feel any bond? This bond is an image. Do you like this person? It is an image. Do not you like? It is an image. Is she boring? It is an image. Is she nice? It is an image. "I like her," or "she is horrible, I hate her"; image! "I do not want to hear from you", or "I want so much to stay with you "; image too!

This image is a crease. You are creased! Do you know what to be creased means? You pick up some clothes, you crease them and there is a mark on them. "I like her so much" ... When you remember someone and feel it, it is a crease. "Such a detestable person" is a crease. You can unlearn this, you see? You do not learn how to be, but you unlearn "being personal," “being a person”. To Be God is a Grace, but being a person is not a very good thing. However, you unlearn. You have to unlearn to be a "person." When does this work start? Now! There are no people in this room, there are no people here. Do you want to keep on the game? If you want to keep on the game, you will make many friends, and enemies as well; you will love being loved, you will detest being hated and you will hate in return. It is the game.

Do you want to keep on the game? Do you want to remain concerned about what they think about you, what they talk about you? Do you want to keep on the game or do you want to learn how to look, to listen, to feel the other? His interiority, not the "person"! In my case, nowadays, since I have no interest in "people", I stay with seeing, feeling, hearing ... with What I Am - their interiority! So they only do me good because I am the good of my relations, of my relationships! I am the Happiness of my relationships! Out of the game, you do not depend on. Out of the game, there is no you in the dependence, in the lack, in the need, in the fear, in the prejudice, in the worry, in the desire.

* Transcribed from the excerpt of a speech during the Retreat of New Year's Eve 2016-2017
at Ramanashram Gualberto in Campos do Jordao

June 16, 2017

What is Awakening?

There is something I want to draw your attention to, in order that you can see, testify that. We all have just one science, one common verification, one common observation: we are here. Wherever you are, and this is common to all, you are here! This is indisputable, unquestionable, it does not enter into debates, it does not depend on opinions, on beliefs. We cannot agree with this and we cannot disagree with it. It is the only certainty; it is the certainty common to all: you are here! Any other experience, any other experiential thing, perceived, verified, felt, is within this indisputable and unquestionable reality. The reality is: you are here!

The only real thing, right thing, is: I Am! Everything revolves around this "I Am". All experiences, at all levels, in all their forms and expressions, appear in this "I Am." I intend in this speech put before you a key for you to open that door. If you close your eyes for it, ignore it, okay. If you do not have the key or if you close your eyes to the key, turn your back to the key, okay. All sleep is happening because we ignore this, because we do not assume the truth of this: "I Am" remains here, and everything else revolves around this "I Am"! All experiences, all incidents, happenings, events; the whole story, the story of this character... There are many characters! They are debatable, they are different, each one has its individuality, particularity, but this "I Am" does not have it. That is the certainty!

I am placing for you now, before your eyes, this key. What is Awakening? What does this mean to you? Awakening means to remain in your True Nature, in a complete, unique, definitive and irreversible way – not getting confused anymore, with what appears around this "I Am."

One cannot talk about Awakening for having an intellectual understanding of this subject. If this is not complete and irreversible, if there is still this identification with the egoic mind, with the belief of this "me", of "someone" present in that experience, if there is this possibility of identifying with what the thought says, there is no Awakening.

Awakening, as I put into this speech, is the end of the sense of separateness. Every experience is outside this "I Am." The experiences of the body, the experiences of the mind, everything appears in this "I Am", but it is not this "I Am." This "I Am" is here and now, regardless the state of the body, the mind; regardless external events, from whatever is appearing. I AM here and now! This "I Am" stands out above any idea of ​​an "I" present at that moment; of an "I" who has experienced something in the past and who can experience something in the future.

The egoic mind - that which is charged with this sense of an "I" in its experiences - is in contact with the external world, with the objects, with people, with places... It was yesterday, it is here today and it will be tomorrow. The egoic mind sets up an external world and an inner world. Its outer world is full of objects, in which it seeks to fulfill itself physically, emotionally, intellectually, sensorial. And, internally, the egoic mind is seeking to fulfill itself through the imagination. This is a very interesting subject to investigate. Most part of your life happens on your imagination. The image you have of yourself is in the imagination, and everything that this image can get, or will be able to get, is in the imagination.

This movement of thoughts happening inside your head works by keeping that sense of an “I” - which I have just called egoic mind – it keeps that settled in the imagination. You are here and now, but the egoic mind has no interest in what You ARE. It is its nature to be blind and unconscious of what You ARE. You are here and now, but it is not. It is in the past or in the future; or it is in this present searching for the future or the past. This is imagination.

You spend most part of your life, most part of your existence, careless of this "I Am" here and now. Why? Because you are lost in this identification with the imagination, internally, and in this identification with experiences, with external objects, through the body. The movement of the senses attracted by colors - at the service of the egoic mind - to distance oneself from that moment, in which the "I Am" remains completely unidentified, completely free, completely full. You are full in your Being.

In the mind, either you are in the imaginary world, or you are in the illusion of an experimenter, in the experience of an external world. As long as there is some vestige, some small shadow, this chance to lose yourself from this "I Am" to the thought, to the identification with the body, to the idea "I am the body", or to the idea "I am the mind "- there is no Awakening.

No matter how many words I know about This; no matter the mastery of my speech, the beauty of my writings; no matter the power of my charismatic influence; no matter if I give names to my meetings; no matter how powerful I am to influence others with my wisdom... Borrowed knowledge. Mere theories, mere concepts!

If your interest is to discover the real meaning of Awakening, then it is not the lexicological, philosophical, verbal, mystical, esoteric, advaita or neoadvaita meaning, but the experiential meaning; that which is only found in your Being, in your True Nature.

If your interest is in realizing This, go beyond the mind, in a complete, total and irreversible way. Disidentify yourself from this inner world of imaginations. Stop imagining! Stop it! Stay here and now. Your work in this direction begins right here: stop imagining. Stop configuring inside images about how things are, or how things were, or how things will be.

The second step is: welcome the outside world, in its appearances, as it is. If it is raining, that is a fact. Do not you want to get yourself wet? Get an umbrella. The rain is out there and do you need to get out? Open an umbrella and get out. Do not make this situation, this event, this mere incident, a personal calamity. Do not turn it into a personal drama. Do not build your story around rain.

The ego does this all the time. If it does not do it with the rain, it does it with other things that are happening. The dish was not taken from the kitchen table, and you have ordered it ten times! No, you have asked a hundred times in this relationship with your husband or boyfriend: "Get the plate and take it to the kitchen." He has never done it! This is a fact. Either he has hearing problems, or he is not willing to be in this game with you, fulfilling your desire. Do not make it a drama.

The work of Awakening needs to be seen by you in the simplest things. You need to realize where the sense of an "I" is being constructed, sustained, in very simple details, being aware of yourself, in a zealous, applied, dedicated way; without losing yourself in imagination, in thoughts about the facts, about the events. Once you pay attention to yourself zealously, you will begin to notice this intricate, malicious, capricious, imaginary movement of a present identity making dramas, making storms in a teacup. The ego has done this.

You ask me what Awakening is. The Awakening is to remain here, now, in this "I Am"! It is to know that what is happening externally, or what is trying to present itself internally, has no reality outside this "I Am", to be able to steal my attention and take me, capture me. What is the meaning of Awakening? Remain in your Being, completely, totally and irreversibly. This as a fact, not as a verbal theory, not as a belief, as all you have ever had. Are you going to introduce one more belief now? This is for no use.

The only certainty is what is real, which is beyond beliefs, opinions, and conclusions about it. There is only this instant! It has nothing to do with the outside world. When I say "this instant," I am not talking about what is happening, because what is happening has already happened... Do you understand? Are you breathing? No. Or you have breathed or you will breathe... Did you breathe? It has already gone. Are you going to breathe? Is not here anymore. Then, neither one thing nor the other is happening. Is someone breathing? Breathing happens, but just like everything else happens, it is already gone!

I am talking about that which is unchangeable. That which is immutable does not happen, it did not happen. Look at your head, what a curious thing: thought has happened or will happen; it is not immutable. The feeling has happened or will happen; it is not immutable.

The future, which the mind loves to create in its imagination, is not a fact, it is a belief, it is just a thought; it is not immutable. Reality is unchanging! The only certainty: "I Am". Remain in That! Work in this direction. It does not matter if you fail many times. You have been without trying for millions of years and do you want to get right at the first time? You have a life ahead. This "I Am" is timeless: it does not happen; it did not happen; it will not happen.

When I say that your life is a fraud, I am talking about this life that the thought projects, positioning itself in the time and in the imaginary space. Now we have touched the fundamental aspect of this Liberation, of this Realization, This what I called Awakening. Now we have touched the key. The key is meditation. Now you know what Meditation is! Was the dish taken to the kitchen? No? Who cares? To whom does this hurt, strike, offend, sadden, bother, depress, cause anguish? Did you get the Christmas present? To whom does it matter? Did they remember your birthday? Whose birthday? To whom does it matter? Who cares to feel loved? Who cares?

In your Being, you are God! What is lacking in God? May someone take the plate to the kitchen to make Him feel good? This happens in this illusion, in this fluctuation of psychological time, the time created by thought. There is no time; this is Meditation! There is no thought; this is Meditation! There is no past, there is no future, there is no present, there is no one!

You cannot get rid of the world on the outside. You cannot give order in the outside world to make everything happen as you want it to happen. It is no use asking the rain to stop. Take the umbrella and get out. It is no use changing the other to feel fulfilled, happy, satisfied, realized by him. All this is on the old foundation of the egoic mind. Why are psychiatric offices full of patients? Answer me? On a smaller scale or on a scale of greater expression, where does your madness stand? This madness is only in the illusion that there is someone there, outside the "I Am."

Awakening is to remain now and here! Just as you open the umbrella and get out; just as you let the plate on the table or get the plate and take it to the kitchen.

Find out in yourself what holds this sense of a present identity in that moment. This is hiding Reality... It is not destroying Reality. It is untouchable. However miserable you may feel, however unhappy, more troublesome, this does not change the fact of an easy verification to all: this "I Am" remains beyond the body and mind.

You have all the energy you need for this Awakening! The key is available, but you are wasting that energy all the time, daydreaming, thinking, imagining, getting identified with the body and its satisfactions, with the outside environment and its events, its episodes, as if this were more important than You. So, this actually becomes more important than You. When that is more important than You, you are miserable. When the other, the world, the shapes, the things, the thoughts, the feelings, imaginations, etc., is more important than remaining in that look, in that hearing, in that feeling, in that experience, without identifying with this, you are miserable. That is it!

* Transcribed from a speech in New Year's Eve Retreat on Dec 2016/Jan 2017 at the Ramanashram Gualberto in Campos do Jordao

June 13, 2017

Dive in your own Being

In Satsang, you have an encounter with Reality, with Truth, with God. In this encounter, only one can prevail, remain and be Real. Therefore, this encounter is something definitive. How important is for you to be here? What is the importance of standing before this Grace, this Presence, the Guru? We can talk a little bit about this in this meeting.

After all, what does being in Satsang mean? In the mind, there is a tremendous confusion about this. There are those who put the figure of the Guru, the Master very far away, as an object, something separate, as a figure of authority. We need a real approach to this. We need to find out what means being in Satsang, which is nothing other than standing before this Presence, this Grace, which is the Presence and the Grace of the Guru!

What is the Guru?

The mind, in its confusion, places the Guru as a figure of authority, as a separate element, one more separate "person". We have been talking about it a few times. The Satguru, the Real Guru is not a “guru”. In India, the word “guru” defines that one who teaches, presents, shows something. It is a term used for teachers as well. So, the Satguru, or the Real Guru, who is this Presence, this Consciousness, is not a "guru”, not a teacher. He is who I AM. He is this "I Am" that I am, the same as My Being. This is the sense of the Presence of the Guru. When you go to the Guru and stand before His Grace, His Presence, you stand before Yourself - before this Consciousness, before the Truth, before the Reality, before God, before Who You Are. This is the Real meaning of a Satguru, a Master.

Does everyone follow this?

In that sense, there is no separation between you and this Reality, between you and this Consciousness, between you and this Presence. There is no separation between you and God, because the Guru is God. We are speaking of Him, the one who expresses this Consciousness as his True Nature; not theoretically, not verbally, not as a belief or as a teacher does. Then, before the Guru, you stand before God, before this Presence, and you can not substitute this for anything else. The Real Guru will not teach you. He will awaken you! He will not show you anything. He will reveal to you your own Self. The Guru is the same as "I Am". This is the sense of the Presence of the Guru.

When you honor Him, you bow before Him, touch his feet, bring presents and flowers, it is a tribute that you pay to Yourself, your own Being. There is only One – The Self - and we are this Self. You are the Self! You are the Guru! You are the Master! You are the Presence! You are the Consciousness! So, honoring the Guru is honoring Yourself.

There is no other than You, who are Consciousness, Presence, Reality, God! So, there is no separation (this illusion) between the disciple and the Guru. There is only the Guru. Confusion arises when the mind appears, creating separation, division and this illusory figure of authority, as if the Guru were one and you another. As if you were the disciple and the Guru the teacher. The Real Guru is not a teacher. The Real Guru is this Consciousness, this inner Presence that takes the external form in the figure of the Guru, but this figure is not separate from that Consciousness, because there is no separation in the Consciousness. In your experience of the world - in the mind - there is a multiplicity, a variety of things, places and people, but in this Presence, in this Consciousness, which is the Heart, there is no separation.

Darshan is this vision of Consciousness. It is Consciousness contemplating Itself, seeing Itself, without any separation. Therefore, it is not the Guru being worshiped or earning homage, because He is not an external element. You do not bow to an external element. God, as Consciousness, as Truth is your own Being – It is You being You; It is You as You.

The Self, God, the Guru is this "I Am" that You Are. I am not referring to the sense of separation, to the sense of "I", of "me", of ego. It is the ego that creates this separation between you and God, between you and this Consciousness, between you and this Reality. When you are in Satsang, this Reality, this Consciousness, this Presence is talking about Itself. It is to This that you, as Consciousness, as Truth render worship and homage to, before the One you bow and touch the feet. Is it clear?

We must completely leave this illusion of separation between the Guru and the disciple. This is an invention of thought. There is only this Presence, Consciousness, Truth, this Reality that is You! You are the Guru! I do not speak about your “I”, your ego and this sense of an “I” present in this experience of the body, the world and the mind. Therefore, surrendering to the Guru means surrendering this sense of separation; it is just that. God, the Guru and the Self IS! Therefore, I recommend you bow before your Being! Love and revere your Self! Surrender to your Self!

Until nowadays, your surrender has been being to this illusion of separateness, which is your own ego, this sense of an "I", this “me”. When you come to Satsang, you receive a new invitation: to surrender to the Guru, to the Consciousness, to your Being! Surrender to That, this Absolute Reality, which we are speaking at this meeting. Thus, there will be no conflict. It is when the blossoming of Awakening appears, manifests - That which is already present is revealed!

Therefore, our invitation in Satsang is: give up your personal life! Abandon the sense of "person", which is the sense of the control of this present identity and the illusion of separation. This is the surrender to the Guru, to the Consciousness, to the Presence... This is the surrender to your own Being, to your own True Nature, which is this Silence, this Freedom! This is the real meaning of Satsang: the encounter with this Presence! You do not think about it, because if you do it, you move away from Reality. Thinking means having ideas, taking conclusions, pondering about This; agreeing or disagreeing. Here, you jump to out of mind, out of the sense of an “I”, and; then, this Consciousness, which is the Guru, reveals itself... It reveals itself as this Presence, as the absence of separateness! This is the end of suffering, of fear and illusion. It is the end of this "me", this "I", that ego, that "person".

When I speak about your Being, I am not referring to your ego. There is something there about you that you are not yet aware of, because you are deeply identified with the mind, with thoughts, with beliefs, with concepts and ideas, with body-mind-world experience. You are so identified with this, and that is the whole problem! Therefore, realize what You ARE! Fell Love for Yourself! Stand up, wake up, become free! Take on that Freedom! Go beyond that "me”! This means touching the feet of the Guru, surrendering to the Guru! This is Real Devotion, it is Real Adoration, it is Real Surrender!

Do you follow this?

This is not for rational and intelligent people. This is for Devotees! Rational and intelligent people do not enter this room, or they do not stay here listening to me for more than three minutes. There is nothing intelligent about this talk, because it is coming from non-separateness, non-duality, and it is addressing this non-separation, this non-duality. It is not arising from the mind to the mind, but it is in that Consciousness to that Consciousness. This is something very objective, direct, real, true, but not intelligent (in the sense that mind knows). So, you can not get anything out of it. This will not add anything to you! This means this "death", which is the death of the "person"; the death of the illusion of this present entity, with all its ability, capability, perspicacity, that is, with everything that ego is very proud of.

We are speaking about surrender, about abandoning ourselves to the feet of this Grace, about this Presence; about giving up control, about being aware that there is no "one" there able to control anything. Therefore, although it is not intelligent, it is wise! The Truth is Wise, is the Wisdom! So, listen by your Heart and not by your head! Throw out your head! Do not try to analyze it. Do not think about it, because it would be like taking concepts in order to have new concepts, which the mind does very well with an "intelligent" ego, but it does not work for anthing here in this space called Satsang. Just allow yourself, and the Awakening of Wisdom happens in a direct and real way. This is Real Intelligence, but it is not for a smart one. God does not deal with intelligent people.

Somewhere in the Bible it is said that the intelligence of this world is foolishness to God and the Wisdom of God is foolishness to this world. That is what we are talking about. So be open, receptive, sensitive. It is necessary to start over, but not to start learning again. This new beginning means unlearning everything you have learned until this day! Thus, the blossoming of this Natural Intelligence happens without effort. This is the Awakening of the Guru, of that Guru who is You in your Real Nature; The Awakening of the Sage, who is You in your Real Nature, because that is what the Sage does: He reveals the Sage! The Guru reveals the Guru! The Master reveals the Master!

Therefore, forget this illusion completely: the illusion of separation between Guru and disciple, between the one who knows and the one who does not know. So, this is Meditation, Presence, Consciousness, and that is Being, is the Real Guru! So, be your own Self! Dive into your own Self! Realize, find out your own Self! In Reality, there is no ego, no "I" or "me"; no body, no mind, no world.

This is a very straightforward talk to you here. So, come to Satsang! Surrender your head to Satsang! Get rid of it! This is the meaning of the apparition of the Guru in your life. You can not run away from Him. You can not escape from Yourself.

* Transcribed from a talk of an online meeting on October 5, 2016 via Paltalk. Download the App and join us. Meetings every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 10pm.